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A Little Creativity, a Lot of Vulnerability

I recently finished the books Daring Greatly by Brene Brown & Girl, Wash Your Face by Rachel Hollis - both of which are fantastic reads and I'd highly recommend to anyone.  Not only are both inspiring, but they challenge the reader to take a leap of faith, believe in themselves, & (like the Nike slogan) JUST DO IT - whatever 'it' is for you, no questions asked.  While being vulnerable is scary as shit, it can also be pretty amazing.

So that's what I'm doing - being vulnerable and doing what I've only JUST starting having the confidence to do...sharing some of my creative writing/poetry on this blog!

This idea started a few few weeks ago when I shared a poem on my social media platforms that I wrote in 5th or 6th grade called "The Girl in the Mirror."  I wrote that piece during a time in my life when I was struggling with an eating disorder, and I can't even explain how therapeutic it was to share that writing with the world (or at least my few hundred friends who liked/loved/commented/or supported it).  I was overwhelmed by the rush of compliments & love from my friends & family...and whether or not any of my other writings live up to that one, I still think sharing some poetry will be a great next step.  Or, at least it will feel good for my soul :)



So below are two 'free-verse poems' I've journaled during the last few months that I've kept away in my notebooks...until now!

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Motherhood is challenging.
But not only that;
It's sticky...and it's messy...
And exhausting.

It means giving up
your late nights and
sleeping in.
to even LATER nights
and early am's.

It's sparing your last bite of food
for that growing boy.
Then finding it on the floor
10 minutes later.

It's having a tiny human
follow you like a shadow.
Then it's sheer panic
for the brief moments
you can't find him.


It's selflessly doing
everything for someone...
And wanting nothing more
than to be selfish
for five minutes.

It's having the love of your life
Who once was a very real part of you...
Living and running, out on their own...
Not always safe and secure from this world
Or physically inside of you anymore.

Motherhood is nonstop laughter
And joy.
And heartbreak.
And anger
And frustration
But you can't imagine life any other way.

Yes, motherhood may be challenging..
But it is so worth it.
----------------------------------------------------
Owning Your Own Darkness
We all have dark horses
in our life.

Life cannot be all
rainbows and butterflies.
It's edgy, rough around the edges,
and unpredictable.
It's only when we
reflect on our own darkness
that we then can understand others
with compassion. 

We cannot compare
our stories.
But rather embrace how they make us
unique
So we can give our gifts
to this world. 

Because we all have a
purpose.
We all have a voice.









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